This is me lately!
Yep, this is me lately ... it feels like I am hanging on by a thread. There has been SO much worry in my life lately, and I admit it ... when I start feeling completely overwhelmed and can't seem to get control on things I do what comes naturally to me. I act like an ostrich and stick my head in the sand. Or maybe I act more like a turtle and pull way into my shell.... or maybe both if that is possible! Either way, those are not the right way to handle stress and anxiety. Thank you Summer for the wake-up call!!
Where to even start??
Without going into a lot of detail on the blog, let's just say that we have having some extremely difficult times with one of our daughters. She is 20 years old and in my (and everyone else's) opinion, has been making some "not-so great" choices in her life. I may not be her biological mother, but I am her mom in every other way imaginable. I love her more than she even realizes. How do you stop someone who is, at the moment, hell bent on going down the wrong road? As hard as it is for me to admit ... I CAN'T. It's so heartbreaking to know that what she is doing isn't right for her and not be able to stop her. All I can do it be open and honest with her, make sure she knows how much we love her, and that we will ALWAYS be here for her. And of course, to remind her too that God is always there for her too ... all she has to do is reach out to Him. It's times like these when I really have to rely on my faith in God and I hate to admit it, but somedays I do a better job with it than others. This is all happening according to His plan and while I may not understand the "why" behind it ... I have to trust Him. I will continue to pray for her every day that she is safe and that she is doing ok... then I HAVE to turn it over to God, and let it go - REALLY let it go. This is way more than Lesley the imperfect human can fix. The bottom line is even though I don't agree with her choices, I love her so very much and will always ALWAYS be here when and/or if she needs me.
Lane is playing baseball at church and is loving every minute of it. He is a really good little ball player and I am so proud of him. Hopefully I'll be able to post some pictures of him in action soon. His coaches, Coach Paul and Coach Darryl, are awesome! Up until this year, Lane played baseball in the Gonzales league and the coaches there are just there to win. At HPC, we have been blessed with coaches that genuinely care about each child and only want them to do their best and to feel good about themselves. Thank you HPC and Upward Sports!!!!!! Unfortunately, Lane has been struggling in math at school lately. And, I'm afraid he inherited my "love" of the subject. He has convinced himself that he can't do it ... that mindset is one that is hard to undo. But, we are working on it and with the grace of God, he will overcome it! Oh, and if anyone out there knows of someone who would be interested in tutoring Lane in math over the summer, please let me know!! He is in the 3rd grade now, and will be in the 4th grade next year.
Our garage sales went pretty well. Yes, I said garage sales. Plural, as in - more than one. LOL! We got rained out on the original Saturday ... so we covered the stuff under our carport with visquine and were gonna do it again the next week, but there was a mix-up with the ad for the paper. So it was actually 2 weeks later that we had the 2nd one. Craziness!!!!!!!!! All together we made a fairly decent amount of money. Not bad for stuff that I would have just thrown away. At this point, every little bit helps.
Let's see what else has been going on.... OHHH yeah.... Mike went to the Men's Conference at church and absolutely loved it. He has also started going to Pastor Dino's prayer breakfast at Frank's on Wednesday mornings. He is also volunteering at the car fix-up this coming weekend too! He has really plugged in with God and church lately and I am so excited about it, I don't think I can put it into words. He is an awesome man, and I love him more than words can say!! I am so blessed.
Well, time to make the dreaded WalMart run ... I'll be back soon!
Oh, and give your kids an extra hug today and make sure they know how much you love them :-)
Be Blessed,
Lesley
2 comments:
Well, punkin', what can I say? We did everything humanly possible to help Jen and to save her from herself. Humans, as you said, can't do it, so now we have to leave it, and her, in God's hands. As I pray for her safety and well being, I am also praying that she will put her life on a path to living in God's will. I ask all that read this do please do the same.
The garage sales worked out well, but sure created a lot of chaos. ;-) Now if someone would just some pick up all of the leftovers, we would be home free.lol
I'm helping Lane with his math homework before ball practice. He is so frustrated with it, and is convinced he can't do it. That breaks my heart. I'll do what I can to help him and to boost his self confidence. I think you are making a very wise move by getting him a tutor over the summer.
Hang in there...God is working everything out. We just have to trust.
OK. Mrs. Turtle Ostrich Lady...
Get your head out of your sandy shell and let your blog family help you through these things...If no one knows you are having problems, no one can send up prayers for you!! ( "Where one or more gather..." I believe that the "gathering" can be in the blog world!!)
Anyway, I just thought I'd leave you a comment so you quit calling me a "lurker!!"
Love you,
Lauren XOXOXOXO =)
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